Well hello there blogger world. Some of you may remember be, and some of you may not. Regardless, I'm basically going to reintroduce myself. I used to go by Dei, some of you maybe allowed to call me that still but now I'd rather go by the name of which I was given - Chanel.
I'm currently 21, I live in Maryland and I am a freelance model -- basically enjoying my life while I can at the moment. The last time I ever wrote a blog post, was back in February of this year. I was going through so much and have been through so much in the past 9 months I've been away from the open blog world. I'll keep it short and simple. I was broke, depressed and going through a crappy relationship with a guy I know now cared nothing really about me. He cheated on me repeatedly and that played on a lot of my self-esteem. To this day, I can still openly admit it still does but, I can say I am free of his tyranny and I'm proud to be a single person slowly but surely finding out who I am in this world.
Remember me now?
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| This was me a few months ago. Sad, confused and utterly in love. Typical problems for a girl, no? |
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| And this is me now.. Still confused to the world. Still in love with the idiot. But, more me and more free! |
The above is just one of many recent photos. I am more inclined to take photos of myself now. My self esteem is no longer... shattered. Still a bit cracked, but ultimately not shattered. I now have a total 4 tattoos and a septum piercing. My hair has gone from red, to blonde, to bangs, to wavy, to purple, to straight, to curly, to wavy, bangs and everything I can think of:
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| Just my looks from April til Now. |
I love how versatile I can be now and I haven't stopped yet. I've bought so many clothes over the past months it doesn't even make any sense, and I could finally afford a new phone! I travelled a lot (mainly back and forth between D.C, home, NY, Baltimore and I went to Miami once.) Things, despite all the bad that has happened, has gotten a lot sweeter. And I bought this baby:
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| My name is Shio! Nice to meet you. I'm evil to my mommy. But I still wuv her. | | |
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I believe I definitely have a lot more to blog about now. Less to complain about, more fun to be had is now my motto. I'm a bit more open minded about things and my head is a lot clearer! And I'm glad to be back in the blogging world. I'm off now to go read blogs that I haven't read in months, discover new ones and just relax.
